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Source Unknown...You keep PUSHING
Leaving nothing UNTOUCHED
If the ancient philosophers are right
And the world is FLAT
Then you will eventually push everything
Achieving nothing but vast emptiness
If the world is ROUND
So you will continue to tirelessly push
He Wanted to Show Her the WorldShe stared out the window of her classroom and wished she was somewhere, anywhere, but where she was currently. Tired and bored of life, her heart hungered for something more. She craved adventure and mystery, something that her current life failed to offer. Her parents kept her locked up, bubble wrapped he life. She knew that some of the reasons for their choking method of parenting were her fault, but that still didn't stop her from wishing for something she knew she would never get. “Wistful thinking” her mother had called it. As she got more and more wrapped up in her own thoughts, the bell rang, telling them all it was time to go home. Shaking her head to clear it, she packed her things and followed the crowd out of the room. Stopping by her locker and saying goodbye to her friends on the way out, she threw her headphones on and started to make the long walk home. It wasn't that long of a walk really, but she enjoyed taking her time, enjoying the way the world surround
Why I StartedInner demons are dangerous…
They never really leave you
And now that I have a year under my belt
I can’t help but wonder why I started.
So I stopped and thought…
I want back to that fateful day
When I first picked up the scissors
And took them to my body,
Hunting for blood…
As the weeks turned into months
The marks grew more frequent, deeper
And I found myself getting hooked
On the high it gave
What was that high…
I know why I started now,
Why the scissors turned into a razor blade
And the marks became permanent scars,
Their story forever written on my body.
I realised what triggered it all,
What made me hurt myself…
I didn’t feel anything…
I smiled, yet felt no joy
I cried, yet felt no sorrow
I screamed, yet felt no rage
I couldn’t feel anything!
Why can’t I feel anything!?
So, I made myself feel something.
That’s why I started
And that’s why I couldn’t stop.
Why it still haunts me…
Because I still don
Shall We Dance?Oh how well we work together
Our body's move to the same beat
Our hearts in sync with the rhythm
And our minds lost to the lyrics
Oh how well we dance together
Our fingers intertwined
Our feet moving in time
And our eyes locked on each other
Oh how nice you are to me
So sweet and kind
Such a caring heart
You make me so happy
Oh how well we can break it down
Hips swaying to the music
Head in the clouds
And eyes closed, getting lost in the moment
Oh how well we work together
And I would gladly do it again
So, shall we dance?
Forbidden FruitI know what you are, my love.
You are a temptation.
You pull at my illogical side,
making me irrational, silly, goofy.
You are a jumble of contradictions,
an impossible chaotic conundrum
sent back to ignite my emotions.
As I stare into those big, blue eyes of yours
I feel myself falling, sinking into you
getting pulled deeper into heartache and pain.
I know you love me
and you know I love you,
but this love of your is doomed.
Those flowers, so beautiful and pure,
are slowly starting to wither
just like the hope I have for out love.
We are not Romeo and Juliet,
although this bittersweet spiral of passion
seems like it was written with the same pen.
The hands of fate have brought you to me
and now those same hands are ripping you away.
Such heartache, tragedy is ours to own.
We can either allow it to consume us,
or we can avoid it.
Which is the right path?
For both end in destruction of lives and family ties.
Such sacrifices, such torment, must be avoided.
I cannot allow you to throw com
H.I thought you held me close
Because you were saying HELLO
Now I realize that you
Were really saying GOODBYE
SafeThe slight chill in the air made me shiver as I stepped out onto the patio. The night had come to an end, and as I walked you to your car I couldn't help but feel a tightening in my chest.I didn't want you to go. I just wanted you to take my hand and whisk me away to a world where time would stop, where I could just have a moment away from the world and be with you. You must have sensed my dishearten for you shoved me playfully and smiled. I couldn't help but smile back.
When we arrived at you car we allowed ourselves to take in the night and look up into the heavens. When I turned back to you, your eyes were already locked with mine. Time froze as I took in the deep blue of your eyes and the compassion and kindness reflecting with their luster. However there was also a hint of uncertainty in them as well, or maybe that was just my eyes reflecting in yours...
The fluttering of a bird brought us back into reality and I thanked you for a wonderful night. Moving closer so I could hug you
When I Last Saw YouWhen I last saw you
We were both only kids
Still trying to find our place
In the big, bad world
When we were separated
The pain killed, but made us stronger
Allowing us to grow and develop
Into strong, young adults
When we started talking again
It was as if no time had passed
Picking right back up
Where our time had ended
When I heard you were coming
The nerves started to surface
What if I had changed for the worst
]Since we had last been together?
When I saw you again
I instantly brightened
You hadn't changed a bit
You're still the boy who stole my heart
When I heard you voice again
I smiled at your memory
Letting your harmony fill my ears
And basking in the moment
When I felt your touch again
It was if time and space froze
I melted into your embrace
As your warmth engulfed me
When we parted again
I didn't want to go
For as we talked and talked
I remembered how amazing you are
So, when you saw me again
Did you feel the same electricity I did?
Was that glint in your eyes
What I thought
LoverShe came to me
Seeking an outlet for her conflicting emotions
Wanting to explore herself
And she wanted my help
She spoke to me
And I listened to her words
Rolling the idea through my mind
And allowing clarity
I allowed myself to feel
You process the emotions and information
Realizing that I felt, in some ways, the same
And I told her yes
She looked at me
With a hidden glint in her eyes
Giving me a small smile
And blushing, just slightly
I allowed myself a smile
As I thought of what was to come
We then went our separate ways
As if nothing had happened
That is how my bestfriend
Became my secret lover
I Tear My Skin AwayI Tear My Skin Away
I tear this skin from my body,
Even if the world screams,
That I am only an illusion.
I tear the bones from my legs,
Through pain, I will grow,
Through suffering, I will become.
I rip the muscles from my arms,
These teeth from my jaws...
And with nothing upon me,
I carry on...
Like a broken puppet, still shivering,
Still forcing its way through the darkness;
I tremble for I am nothing...
And yet, I am moving. My voice still screams...
I draw breath into these tired lungs,
As I rip the flesh away...
And I shatter these mirrors before me,
With a voice that will not break:
Because the world cannot label me as nothing,
And I will live for my own sake!
"So tell me, is that all the pain you've got for me?"
I screamMy scream is loud.
My scream is honest.
My scream is desperate.
My scream is filled with truth.
Why would nobody hear me?
dearly belovedthese days
your name has been slipping
in and out of my rib cage
my heart forgets to beat.
how even after all these months i still
don't want to believe that
you're dead. how during the
first couple of weeks i prayed
to a god i didn't believe in and begged to know
if death tasted sweet to you. how once,
when the monsters in my head
didn't let me sleep, i
wrote you three poems and then
you were a supernova that
lit up my life for
a few radiant moments before,
like all good things in this
you came to an end.
the sinner in me hopes that you have wings now.
but i think that,
most of all,
i hope you no longer
remember what pain
Those Green Eyes (Or: Don't Lie to Your Kid)Those green eyes -
The green of joy
The green of hope
The green of love and acceptance -
Were always full of lies.
They first lied when I said,
After a nightmare at four am
When I was too small to reach a light switch,
“Will you ever leave me?”
And those eyes said,
Why did those green eyes
Shut when I needed them most?
"Are you okay?"
Would be a red line
That I would etch into myself
Those green eyes melted.
Those green eyes did shine
And I knew what it was -
I was young, not stupid -
But I indulged the lie,
For those green eyes.
"Will it get better?"
I asked one sunny Saturday
At ten in the morning
And those green eyes looked away;
“And you’ll be here forever?”
There were no words.
I made up my own affirmative.
Those green eyes -
When they saw
How I’d rubbed myself raw
notes on a matchbook love.if I were the type
to say how I really felt,
I'd tell you that
I hope you choke on your apologies
like they're arsenic
and your nails are already
with the poison.
I'd let you know
that I'll never be a body
for you to touch
just because I know that's all you want.
I'll never be a fairy in a bottle
at your waist.
this is no storybook, and
I am no myth.
hear my silence,
feel the cold absence
respond to your weak "I'm sorry"s.
I beg you,
stop digging the hole,
stop, just stop.
Hush and watch the flames
engulf the image you sold me.
you can tell me
I'm beautiful as much
as you want,
but I know that it's not enough,
that you'll always want more,
that you've been a wolf
between my legs all this time
and my fingers are bruised
from holding the leash.
now every time you whisper
"please be okay",
I will always tell you that
I'm fine, I'm fine, I'm fine.
I will forever pretend
that I've grown up from you,
that I've become a mystery
Wrists.Wrists are not made,
To be cut up by cold blades.
Blood was meant to stay in your veins,
Not to be drained.
From your body,
You're stronger than that,
I know a person can only take,
Until they break.
And you have your doubts,
And when you lay in bed,
The pain is all you think about.
But you're so much more,
Than your heart aches.
So much more,
Than your demons.
Even if you feel,
Like your dying,
And you are through with trying,
Because all you've been doing lately is crying.
I want you to know,
That no, you're not alone.
And you re going to survive.
Please just drop your knife,
Because you're going to,
Make it out alive.
words, wonderlight has faded and words are heavy,
but there is a delicate magic
twisting between your fingers.
it is all a-scribble
melisma without music;
syllables stitching terra firma
to firmament in intricate
stanzas that require
neither breath nor sound
to echo, infinite,
within the depths
of susurrous souls.
it is cold and it is dark,
but there is a fire in you
and you use it with a fierce grace
that illuminates the shadows,
and ignites the demons
until not even the grey spaces
that haunt and harry
can hold dominion.
they are exposed
they are broken
into shards of sunrise
and rays of a quiet
you scare away the night
with exhalations that blow
away the fogged emptiness
inside, over and over,
sparking fireworks from
what was thought
to be ash.
I Know You're Strong, Let's Be Stronger TogetherI Know You're Strong, Let's Be Stronger Together
if i’m being completely honest,
i can’t say i know what you’re goin’ through.
and if i’m being frank,
i’m sort of afraid to write this
because i’ve always been unsure
if i love too much but it’s my nature
and i’d rather lose by trying too hard
than to do so without doing enough.
i hope you’re asleep now
and i hope you don’t read this
till the morning and i hope by then
things will be a little lighter
but i’m hoping against hope
because if you don’t know,
i feel when things are off.
call it intuition, call it a feelin’,
say i just know it.
my friend, my door is always open
even when you’re feeling closed
off to the world and right there,
i can understand that feeling well,
because i still feel we relate to one another
better than most brothers understand their sisters.
know i look at you as a sibling
and i believe we know when the other
I Did It For HerWe have always had a thing
whether it be a friendship, or something more
we don't really know
but it has always been there...
The other night we danced
and the lights heightened everything around us
getting high on the bass line
and lost in the lyrics...
Then you asked me to be yours
and I said yes
We were as happy as can be
dancing our worries away
and getting lost in the music together,
Then I thought about her
I know how she feels about you
She is my best friend,
and I will not hurt her
even though I had to hurt you
in the process...
I'm so sorry
but I did it for her
I'll always do it for her
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